What 4 years of blogging has taught me about my disability

As cliché as it sounds, it doesn’t seem like two minutes have passed since I hit publish on my very first post, inviting you all to share my journey as a young woman with with cerebral palsy living in the UK. Yet, here I am still typing away, only the year on my laptop is telling me it’s 2017 now.

I might not have been around as much lately while I try look after my mental health, but View from a Walking Frame is always at the forefront of my mind. Not only has this tiny part of the internet helped to give me something to talk about at job interviews as I still try to find full-time employment, it’s been my lifeline. Perhaps the most important thing, though, is that it’s taught me a lot about my own disability. And today, I thought I’d share those things with you:

 

I need to learn to let go

One of the toughest journeys I’ve been on with this blog is learning to let go of so many things. Back when this blog started, I used to shy away from talking about my bad CP days. I thought everyone reading would think I was being an ungrateful whimp. I thought you’d only want to read about the good days.

I was wrong. You are all so kind and supportive and understanding.  You are all kinder to me and more supportive of me than I have ever been to myself. I’m learning so much from all of you.

Which leads me onto…

I need to stop worrying about what other people think

My bad CP days are mine, and even though I can try and explain how they make me feel, only I know the truth. I should be allowed say I’m hurting and not worry about being judged.

My mental health is just as important as my physical health

Honestly, opening up about my mental health as well as my cerebral palsy on this blog has been one of the best things I’ve ever done. You’ve all helped to make this blog a place where I feel I can be honest, so thank you.

When I started View from a Walking Frame it was purely about disability. It is about so much more than that now. I never realised or paid attention to the emotional impact of a bad cerebral palsy day until I started talking about it on here. I guess I didn’t really think it was important, but it is. I’m learning more and more about how my disability impacts on my life every day, and I have blogging to thank for that.

Naps are good. Rest days are good. It is important.

You guys have all helped me realise that needing a rest day is perfectly normal and I don’t have to fight against my body every second of every day. In fact, I might catch some Zs after I’ve written this post. #Sorrynotsorry

Again, thank you all so much for your support. I hope my blog helps some of you even a tiny bit more than it helps me. If it does, then it’s all worth it.

So, who’s up for another four years? I’m game if you are!

Love,

Nic xx

 

 

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3 thoughts on “What 4 years of blogging has taught me about my disability

  1. Very well said Nicola. You touched on a really good point too…that disability isn’t just about the physical stuff. It can really affect your mental health too. I’ve always struggled with my mental health as a result of being born with a disability so I think it’s great you’re shining a light on that part of living with a disability. It really does seep into every aspect of your life. Sending lots of hugs from across the pond.

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