Hi guys,
Sorry to post twice in one day again, but here’s a video about Christmas, my anxiety, and how some of it relates to my cerebral palsy:
Tag: anxiety
Video- will you just sit still
I fidget a lot. Sorry guys
Unsettled
I don’t know why, but sleep has been difficult lately. It feels like every night for the last week and a bit I spend more time trying to drift off than actually sleeping. Then, when I do manage to fall asleep, my body seems to jerk me awake the second I do, and I wake up feeling restless and the cycle begins again.
In fact, I’ve been feeling restless pretty much constantly lately for reasons I’m not sure about too, and I’ve found myself craving company more than usual. Normally, I’ve perfectly happy spending time alone, but these last couple of weeks I seem to have been constantly refreshing all of my social media networks in case anyone sends me a message, or says something I think I could comment on.
Morning Bliss
I know what you’re thinking, Nic, we get it, you’re not a morning person, but one of the main reasons I don’t like mornings is because I never know what I’m going to wake up to, both on a cerebral palsy level and on a mental health-y kind of level.
Thanks to my CP, there’s not a day that goes by where something doesn’t hurt or ache, and for the most part it’s fine and I can deal with it. Lately though my bad CP days have been getting more and more frequent, and happening for more consecutive days.
Just lately I’ve been having a lot of problems with the bottom of my back and my neck to the point where I haven’t really felt like doing much during the day, and it’s been keeping me up at night. Needless to say that means I have no idea just how bad something will be when I wake up.
A ball of anxiety
I often find my anxiety is worse at night. It often kicks in just as I’m about to go to sleep.
Take now for example. It’s about 12.30am on Sunday morning and I spent most of Saturday wandering around in a fog of tiredness with the worst neck ache I’ve had for a long time . I’ve spent most of the day counting down the minutes to bed time. Sleep should be easy but it won’t be.
The second I crawled under the duvet my brain started buzzing with anxious thoughts about all sorts of things like what I’m going to post on here this week, the videos I need to edit and the fact I haven’t done any writing for a while.
Then of course I got anxious about the fact that I’m too anxious to sleep.
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