Morning Bliss

I know what you’re thinking, Nic, we get it, you’re not a morning person, but  one of the main reasons I don’t like mornings is because I never know what I’m going to wake up to, both on a cerebral palsy level and on a mental health-y kind of level.

Thanks to my CP, there’s not a day that goes by where something doesn’t hurt or ache, and for the most part it’s fine and I can deal with it. Lately though my bad CP days have been getting more and more frequent, and happening for more consecutive days.

Just lately I’ve been having a lot of problems with the bottom of my back and my neck to the point where I haven’t really felt like doing much during the day, and it’s been keeping me up at night. Needless to say that means I have no idea just how bad something will be when I wake up.

The other day I woke up thinking that things had finally settled down. My back felt really nice stretched from sleeping on my back and lying on my front for a bit when I woke up. It was quite a relief if I’m honest. Then I got up…

No sooner had I walked downstairs when everything started flaring up again. I wasn’t too pleased but as the day wore on things seemed to calm down.

I’m also not a huge fan of mornings because I never really know what mood I’m going to wke up in at the moment. Some mornings I wake up feeling so anxious I don’t know what to do with myself, some days even the thought of choosing what to wear and getting dressed seems too much, and other days I feel absolutely fine.

Mornings are full of a few moments of bliss, then a lot of uncertainty, I find

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