So many feelings

Those of you who subsrcibe to my YouTube might have seen a video I posted last week about an anxiety flare up I’ve been going through lately. I have so many anxious thoughts and feelings going on right now that I’m not really sure what to do about it or where I should start.

Up until January, I had been planning on reducing the dose of antidepressants that I take to help me manage my anxiety and low moods, but I had an appointment with my doctor yesterday and decided that I’d stay on my current dose for a little longer until I get over this little blip

Concetrating on pretty much anything has been a bit of a challenge this week. Even watching TV hasn’t been holding my attention too well. I have, somehow, been managing to read a lote more though, which is nice. I went through what I think was the biggest reading slump of my life last year so it’s nice that I’ve aleady polished off four so far this year (although I did start one of those in the last week of December).

I’m working on a few voluntary things at the moment, as well as looking for a full-time, paid job, undertaking a massive edit of one of my longer writing projects, updating this blog and making YouTube videos. I’m trying my best to keep busy. I like to think that even though I’m unemployed I work hard on other things that are important to me, but it doesn’t feel like I’m doing enough most of the time.

Do any of you have these feelings? How do you deal with them?


7 thoughts on “So many feelings

  1. Sorry to hear you feeling down & anxious Nic, hope it passes soon! I know it’s tough but try not to be so hard on yourself! Paid work will come along soon enough and in the meantime you’re doing great! πŸ™‚ xx


  2. Hi Nicola, I hope things get better for you soon. Yes, I struggle too, because of anxiety, depression, chronic pain and the problems that come with being disabled. Sending you hugs! 🐻


  3. I’ve been unemployed, depressed, and frustrated all at the same time. The only thing that kept me going was that I knew this too shall pass. I kept lists of everywhere I had applied, and I kept calling. I must have called at least twenty places per day just kept submitting resumes, and I made it feel like a full time job. I’d keep office hours while I searched, I’d call job agencies, even if they didn’t have anything for me, to ask if they could recommend any companies hiring. I told myself I was doing the best I could do. Eventually I did land a job and it’s been much better. All I can say is hang in there, you’re doing your best, and be easy on yourself. πŸ˜‰


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