It’s 1am and here I am, unable to sleep for what must be the third time this week.

I have no idea what’s keeping me awake tonight. One night, it was feelings of ‘What am I doing with my life?’ another time it was because I wanted to write. Last night pain decided to climb into bed with me and make getting comfortable impossible, but today…
It’s been one of those weird days today, where I haven’t felt unwell exactly, but I’ve not been myself either. I could tell things would be like that as soon as I woke up because I felt anxious to my tummy. All churn-y and whatnot.
I’d already planned to work from home, which was probably a blessing. I sort of feel like I’ve been in a daze all day; not down the grey pit of depression, but not fully engaged with life either.
I suppose I’m probably just over tired. I think I should try sleep now. I hope i can. I’m sure things will feel better in the morning…

The ‘positive’ sides to sleepness nights

Between bad CP nights and a flare up in my anxiety I’ve been having a lot of sleepness nights.

It’s not all bad though.  Yes, it’s annoying sleeping late into the morning instead,  but I’ve noticed there are a few positive things to come out of it.

1. I’m reading loads
2. I’m listening to a lot of music and adding more stuff to my writing playlist
3. I usually get writing ideas as I’m trying to go to sleep.
4. I tend to do physio when I’m having a bad cerebral palsy night or just struggling to sleep

I’ll admit that when I started writing this post I thought there were a lot more of them than I’ve listed here, but they all count.

Things I do on bad CP nights

I’ve been having quite a few bad CP nights lately so I thought I’d share some of the things I do when I’m having one:

  • Keep moving around – I hope I can get comfy if I try lying in enough different positions
  • Lots of physio
  • Get up and do something productive – When I have a bad cerebral palsy night I know there’s a pretty good chance I’ll sleep in the next day to compensate so I like to try and do something productive because I find that makes me feel a lot less stressed the next day. Plus, it gives me something else to focus on besides the pain, which can sometimes help make me feel better.
  • Read – so many books, so little time
  • Binge watch Netflix

What do you do on bad CP nights?

I can’t get no sleep

It’s almost 2AM and, like the Faithless song says, I can’t get no sleep. It has nothing to do with insomnia in my case though, but has just about everything to do with an achy back and neck that has been bothering for most of the day.

It’s not all bad though. At least the headache that came along with it on and off since I woke up seems to have gone away and I’ve been able to sort out a couple of blog posts and edit a video before I crawled into bed. I know, I know, being on the laptop writing this is hardly going to help matters, but it’s helping me feel less frustrated about the fact I can’t seem to nod off.

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