Well, it’s just past midnight on January 2nd. I am pleased, and actually quite amazed to say that I managed to survive New Year without dissolving into a ball of anxiety, depression and self-loathing like I have done almost every year since I graduated.
If anything, I’m more motivated than ever.
It’s also my birthday. 27 years ago today I shocked (and probably panicked) everyone by deciding that I wanted to take my place in the world 14 weeks ahead of schedule. I got cerebral palsy for my eagerness.
I wish I could say this level of punctuality has followed me into my adult life, but I’d be lying.
For the past few years I haven’t wanted to do anything special for my birthday.
I never really gave that much thought when I was a kid, but now I’m older it feels pretty darn weird. I think it always will now. I mean, why would/should/do I celebrate a day that was probably awful for my family?
This year though, I’ve had a bit of a change of heart. I survived. My mum survived. It was touch and go for a while, but we made it. My dad also managed to come through the whole ordeal too.
My parents were told I’d need speech therapy. I didn’t.
My parents were told I might not crawl. I did. Within two weeks of them being told that.
They were told I might only be able to ‘walk around a supermarket at best’. I think you all know how wrong that turned out to be.
Not only did we all survive, but we stuck two fingers up to every expectation along the way.
And we still do that last part. Every. Single. Day.
I think that’s pretty freaking amazing.
I’m off to celebrate. Who’s with me?