When I sat down to start writing today’s post, I thought that I was going write something about carrying things, especially heavy things, but as soon as I pressed the ‘New Post’ button, it didn’t feel right.
Although this blog is primarily one about me living with my disability cerebral palsy, I have also recently opened up about my mental health, and my journey through life with OCD, anxiety and low mood/depression.
I never know just how much of that to share here, not because I am ashamed of it, but because I don’t know if the people who read these posts would find it helpful or interesting.
That said, I’m going to talk about it today because today is a particularly ‘bad’ or hard day and I don’t want to hide from it. On days like today I kind of feel like the world all looks a bit foggy around he edges, the things that make me happy don’t seem to be today. Even while I talk to people I feel alone and my own moody makes me feel claustrophobic within my own mind.
I feel a bit like I’m doing everything in slow motion. I think I would feel better if I could just sit down and have a five minute cry, but it’s not that simple and I know life doesn’t work that way.
I’ll try and lose myself in writing, or reading or a TV show on Netflix.
Today is one off day. I’ll get through it. I know that people go through this and worse everyday. I’ll get past it.
I love you all,