Birthdays with Cerebral Palsy

It was my birthday last week. I turned 24. I had a wonderful day surrounded by people that I love and care about, and, who I’m fairly certain love and care about me just as much. I was spoilt with good will messages, cake and presents and it was wonderful to be able to spend time with some of the most important people in my life.

That said, now that I’m older, I’m always more and more aware that I wasn’t supposed to be blowing out candles and making any wishes for another three months yet. That evening my mum said to me, “Just think this time 24 years ago we were both fighting for our lives…” and every year on my birthday that thought is never too far away.

I spend a lot of time wondering what my parents, especially my dad, must have been going through at that point. We’ve talked about it a bit on quite a few occasions but I don’t think I’ll ever truly “get it”, and I don’t think that’s a bad thing either really. During these conversations I usually cry, or at least tear up a bit, and tell them I’m sorry over and over and over again. Exactly what I’m sorry for I’m never really sure. Sorry they had to go through all that I guess.

Then I always feel the same rush of pride for both my mum and my dad. They never gave up on me. We all made it, we’re all still here, and that’s the best thing of all that I think about every year on my birthday.

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12 thoughts on “Birthdays with Cerebral Palsy

  1. Happy belated Birthday! 🙂
    It was my birthday on New years day but I wasn’t meant to be born until March each birthday makes you feel so blessed doesn’t it! xx

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  2. happy birthday for last week!!!!
    My mum always tells anyone who will listen on my birthday how early I was, how tiny I was, how ill she was etc…. I was born on October 9th, but was actually due around Christmas. My sister jokes that I still owe her a holiday, seeing as I ruined the one the were on when I decided to arrive!! I think those of us that were born early should have two birthdays like the Queen, but as my friends say I’m a bit of a queen anyway!!!!

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    1. Haja maybe one day you can take your sister on that holiday. I like the idea of two birthdays! I always think it must be hard for parents on our birthdays. It must bring it all back.

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  3. I plan to one day!!! It’s harder for my mum and grandma, where she was so ill, and far from home (my family are from sussex and I was born in devon) but my dad and I don’t tend to dwell on it too much, as it won’t change my situation. Instead I think more about what I can do, and I tend to remember the anniversaries of my major surgery, as that means more to me….

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    1. Oh that must have been really hard to be away from home when ot all happened. I used to remember the dates of my major surgery but I can’t remember the exact dates any more. Just the months and the year.

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