Rediscovering my motivation

It feels like things are changing here in NicLand, and that is most definitely a good thing.

It’s now been three years since I finished my multimedia journalism degree and a lot has happened to me since then. When I graduated I felt mentally and physically stronger than I had ever done. I could walk further and do more for myself than I had been able to in the past, and my anxiety and low moods weren’t impacting on me anywhere near as much as they had done when I was studying for my A-levels and in my first year at uni. Yes, I was scared about what the future might hold, but more than anything, I was excited.

Fast forward two years and the story became very different. Even though I’d done work experience, an internship and a bit of freelance work, I still hadn’t found a fulltime job. I wasn’t getting out much during the week because everyone around me had jobs, and that meant that I spent a lot of time alone with my thoughts. I spent far more time focusing on my worries, my anxieties and everything and my OCD-like thoughts about germs. I started showering up to three times a day and changing my clothes, worrying that they would have germs on them that would infect the house. I spent a lot of time crying and not a lot of time sleeping. To put it bluntly, I was a mess.

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Fun fact Friday [36]

Hello and welcome to Fun Fact Friday where I share facts about myself that aren’t linked to my cerebral palsy.

I think we all know by now that I have a sweet tooth and my favourite dessert is cheesecake.

Cerebral palsy and menstruation

As you can probably tell by the title of this post. I’m going to be talking about how my menstrual cycle impacts on my Cerebral Palsy. I won’t be going into any of the ‘gory’ details but I will be talking about how it makes my muscles feel, and how my mother and I found which feminine hygiene products worked best for me. If you don’t want to read this I completely understand and I’ll see you next time.

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