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Feeling the cold

It’s definitely getting colder in the UK now and I am most definitely feeling the difference. On days where I’ve still been wearing dresses, I’ve also had my socks on over the top because my feet often feel the cold more than anywhere else.

That said, my legs always feel it too, especially the upper half above the knee, (which, as it happens, is probably the place I get the most pain when I’m on my period too.)

For the last couple of days I’ve either been sat with a blanket over them or with a wheatbag on my knee to try keep warm.

Today, I’m noticing it more than ever because it felt like the cold had worked its way right down into my bones this morning. The wheatbag approach didn’t really help, but a hot shower did so I can’t complain.

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Ready for bed

It’s about 12:20am on Sunday morning (I’m still going to call it Saturday night, if that’s okay with you), and I am ready for bed. Sleepy-ness wise and cerebral palsy-wise.

It’s been a fairly mixed day CP-wise. It didn’t start out great. It’s been freezing and that makes my muscles feel tighter. I’ve had a different type of aching in my hips to what I’m used to, which I’ll talk about in another post when I’m a bit more alert.

Anyway, I hid under my duvet in thick jeans and a giant hoody for most of the day, had a nap (it’s what Saturdays are for, right?) and then went out with my friends because two of them have a birthday this weekend.

I was a bit worried at first because it was even colder outside and a bit icy, but I had a lovely time and it was actually was nice-and-toasty-warm in the pub.

Then I came home and got a hot shower on impulse. I even washed my hair. Then I got out with my muscles feeling extra relaxed and ready for sleep. Then, because my mum was still up I asked her if she’d put my resting splints on. I’m sat in them now as I type and it feels really good. I don’t wear them as often as I should because I forget to ask someone to help with them before they go to bed, but tonight it was one of those times where (and this will probably sound strange, but I’m tired so please go with it), the way my ankles were feeling it was like my body was asking me to put them on because it wanted the extra stretch while my muscles aren’t as tight as usual, which means they won’t fight against it quite so much.

Someone please tell me you know what I mean…anyone?

And with that, I’m going to go to sleep now. I should have written this after I’d slept, but the writer in me thinks it’s kinda special to be able to write something in the moment.

I really just said that, didn’t I?

G’night.

And so I’ve made a start…

Well, it may only be October but I’ve already started Christmas shopping.

Don’t hate me for bringing up the C-word. I’m not ready either

I’m not sure quite how I feel about this. Part of me feels like it’s far too early to be doing it, but on the other hand I feel like it’s probably a good thing. I love shopping any time of the year but the last couple of weeks of November and December, during which the thought of donning about 17 layers of clothing and hoping that there’s no ice around for me to slip on makes me feel a bit ill.

We all know what it’s like, there’s just so many people, and everyone’s in a rush and wants to make sure the get hold of all the gifts they want to give people before they all go out of stock.

I always feel like I should save one or two things to buy in the last few days before Christmas, but it’s just not wise for me.

I should probably also think about re-stocking my glove collection, as I tried looking for some the other day and could only find one pair, although I usually have about five because I always lose them.

Maybe I should buy some thicker socks too…hmm…

I have such a love/hate relationship with this time of year…

Too tired to sleep?

Is it possible to be too tired to actually sleep? It felt that way last night.

I’m not entirely sure how much sleep I got in the end, but I know I was still awake at midnight, got up several times in the night, and have been working on writing projects since about 6am. (it’s currently 7am as I type this).

University-student Nic was fine with this amount of shut-eye, but 2015 Nic who graduated three years ago is not. 2015 Nic catches Zs wherever possible and has even been known to wake up from 12 hours of sleep and have to fight the urge to not slip back to Dreamland.

I wouldn’t mind so much if I hadn’t had a bad night’s sleep on Saturday and spent all of yesterday counting down the minutes till bed time.

Nontheless as soon as my head met my pillow my brain fired into action and I was still up for hours.

I don’t actually need to be awake right now. I have time to grab a couple more hours rest. I’m tired and I’ve been awake for ages. It should be easy but I’m so tired that I’m getting mad at myself for not being able to sleep.

I’m too tired for this…