Author: Nicola Golding

My name is Nic, I'm 26 and just happen to have Cerebral Palsy that I've had since birth. It mostly impacts on my legs and my left arm and so I use a walking frame. When I'm not blogging I can usually be found making YouTube videos, reading or trying to write a novel.

Ready for bed

It’s about 12:20am on Sunday morning (I’m still going to call it Saturday night, if that’s okay with you), and I am ready for bed. Sleepy-ness wise and cerebral palsy-wise.

It’s been a fairly mixed day CP-wise. It didn’t start out great. It’s been freezing and that makes my muscles feel tighter. I’ve had a different type of aching in my hips to what I’m used to, which I’ll talk about in another post when I’m a bit more alert.

Anyway, I hid under my duvet in thick jeans and a giant hoody for most of the day, had a nap (it’s what Saturdays are for, right?) and then went out with my friends because two of them have a birthday this weekend.

I was a bit worried at first because it was even colder outside and a bit icy, but I had a lovely time and it was actually was nice-and-toasty-warm in the pub.

Then I came home and got a hot shower on impulse. I even washed my hair. Then I got out with my muscles feeling extra relaxed and ready for sleep. Then, because my mum was still up I asked her if she’d put my resting splints on. I’m sat in them now as I type and it feels really good. I don’t wear them as often as I should because I forget to ask someone to help with them before they go to bed, but tonight it was one of those times where (and this will probably sound strange, but I’m tired so please go with it), the way my ankles were feeling it was like my body was asking me to put them on because it wanted the extra stretch while my muscles aren’t as tight as usual, which means they won’t fight against it quite so much.

Someone please tell me you know what I mean…anyone?

And with that, I’m going to go to sleep now. I should have written this after I’d slept, but the writer in me thinks it’s kinda special to be able to write something in the moment.

I really just said that, didn’t I?

G’night.

And so I’ve made a start…

Well, it may only be October but I’ve already started Christmas shopping.

Don’t hate me for bringing up the C-word. I’m not ready either

I’m not sure quite how I feel about this. Part of me feels like it’s far too early to be doing it, but on the other hand I feel like it’s probably a good thing. I love shopping any time of the year but the last couple of weeks of November and December, during which the thought of donning about 17 layers of clothing and hoping that there’s no ice around for me to slip on makes me feel a bit ill.

We all know what it’s like, there’s just so many people, and everyone’s in a rush and wants to make sure the get hold of all the gifts they want to give people before they all go out of stock.

I always feel like I should save one or two things to buy in the last few days before Christmas, but it’s just not wise for me.

I should probably also think about re-stocking my glove collection, as I tried looking for some the other day and could only find one pair, although I usually have about five because I always lose them.

Maybe I should buy some thicker socks too…hmm…

I have such a love/hate relationship with this time of year…

Too tired to sleep?

Is it possible to be too tired to actually sleep? It felt that way last night.

I’m not entirely sure how much sleep I got in the end, but I know I was still awake at midnight, got up several times in the night, and have been working on writing projects since about 6am. (it’s currently 7am as I type this).

University-student Nic was fine with this amount of shut-eye, but 2015 Nic who graduated three years ago is not. 2015 Nic catches Zs wherever possible and has even been known to wake up from 12 hours of sleep and have to fight the urge to not slip back to Dreamland.

I wouldn’t mind so much if I hadn’t had a bad night’s sleep on Saturday and spent all of yesterday counting down the minutes till bed time.

Nontheless as soon as my head met my pillow my brain fired into action and I was still up for hours.

I don’t actually need to be awake right now. I have time to grab a couple more hours rest. I’m tired and I’ve been awake for ages. It should be easy but I’m so tired that I’m getting mad at myself for not being able to sleep.

I’m too tired for this…

Fun Fact Friday [53]

Hello and welcome to Fun Fact Friday, the place where I share facts about myself that aren’t linked to my cerebral palsy.

You all probably know by now that I love to read, but I have been in a massive reading slump for months now. It feels like none of the books I pick up grab my attention and I give up on most of them half way through. I’ve tired going to the library, but I bring books home and the same things happen, or I don’t touch them at all. I’ve selected books to get rid of and bought new ones. Nothing seems to be working and I don’t like it. I think I’ve finished maybe three books in the last three months or so.

Trying more calipers

My callipers
My calipers

Long time readers of this blog my remember that I tried wearing calipers as an alternative to splints a couple of years ago.

While they were better for me in some ways, like I could get them on and off myself, I blistered quite badly if I wore them for too long and so in the end I went back to my splints.

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