It’s time for me to write one of those brutally honest posts that I hate so much because there’s no way for me to do them without sounding self-pitying and ungrateful,but sometimes it just needs to be done.
I have lost count of how many bad cerebral palsy days I’m currently having in a row. It feels like I’m always in pain. Sitting down hurts, standing up hurts, moving too much hurts, not moving enough hurts; you get the point.
I am so, so tired, physically and mentally if I’m being honest. If I tell people that I’m having a bad CP day, I think they know that means I’m sore, but they might not know that focusing on anything is hard. I just want to stay in bed and rest, but, like I said, resting too much makes things worse.
My to do list is getting higher and higher and that’s not helping, but I’m rying to only do the things that I actually need to do each day, rather than pushing myself to be super productive. You all know how much I thrive on being productive though.
To be honest, I think I’m feel better if I could cry. I’m a fir believer that sometimes bawling your eyes out for ten minutes can be best medicine, but you can’t force these things.
So, yeah, that’s where I am right now. I hope you’re all keeping well.