Guest Post: Autism is the Reason by Cold Tea Connoisseur

Autism is the reason acquaintances don’t invite me to events. And it’s the reason I don’t care. I have my own world.

Autism is the reason I notice every judgmental look on a person’s face when my son has ‘Happy Flappy’ hands. And it’s the reason I’m too practised at masking to show my rage. For now.

Autism is the reason I use the disabled toilet if the women’s has queues. My disability is invisible. But not if I’m forced to endure strip lights, chatter and dryers.

Autism is the reason I had so many non-starter relationships. But I braved online dating. I married my best friend.

Autism is the reason I find reading people difficult. But it means if I take the time to get to know you, I’ll know you better than you know yourself.

Autism is the reason I stand alone at the school gates at home time. But also how my son’s learned it’s ok to value your own boundaries.

Autism is the reason I live in comfortable clothes. It’s the reason I’ll never be a slave to trends.

Autism is the reason I find writing easier. But it’s how I’ve reached you today and I’m grateful for that.

As Hayley’s Twitter bio will tell you, she is an autistic woman, mother, writer, wife, carer, and so many other things.

You can read her blog at: and find her on Twitter and Instagram


Things I would say to parents of kids with Cerebral Palsy

Let me kick this post off by saying that I know I am probably the least qualified person to be writing this – I’m not a parent, and I’ll be totally honest and say that, at present, I have no desire to be. I know this might change for me in future and if it does then that’s okay, but for now I think I’m far happier with the idea of getting to be the family friend that buys all the noisy, messy toys at Christmas. But anyway, I digress.

I’ve been toying with the idea or writing this post for a while, but I didn’t want to offend any parents by writing an ‘advice’ post when I can’t even imagine what it’s like to be in their position. I’m also not a medical professional; I’m just your average 23 year-old who happens to have Cerebral Palsy herself. I know that no two people are ever the same, and so CP effects people differently so this isn’t going to be a post about therapy or anything like that. I wanted it to be something that I hoped would lift your spirits on a bad day, even though I’m still not sure that I’d be capable of doing that. But I still couldn’t shake the feeling that I wanted to write this post. So, I did what I usually do when I find myself in a dilemma, and talked to my Mum. She told me to just to go for it. So without further adieu, here is my list of advice for parents of kids with Cerebral Palsy, in no particular order:

Never underestimate your child

Never, ever underestimate what your child can and might be able to do one day, because, I promise you they will defy expectations every single day. It might not be yours that they defy every day, but they will astound someone somewhere at least once a day.

I know it’s hard – this part is still hard for me too – but if someone comes up to you in the street and tells you “aw, isn’t your child doing well,” please try and take this as a compliment rather than as them saying this because they don’t know what else to say. They’re most probably saying it because they mean it and they applaud the efforts that you and your child are putting in to be able to do whatever it is that they are doing well. Believe me there’ll be enough people waiting to criticise you, or tell you what they think you should be doing, so please take the compliments of others as a victory whenever they come around.

Never underestimate how much you have helped your child –even though I’m not sure you’ll ever appreciate how much you have

I am always the first person to stand up and say that I would not be where I am today if it was not for the unconditional love and support of my mum and dad. Where others have doubted me or written me off on occasion, they haven’t. And I love them for it. They helped me so much and they know that. They remember all the things they did to help me that I’m too young to recall. I’m old enough now understand just how much that means to me on a personal level, and I’m not sure my folks will ever be able to comprehend even if I try to explain it. They are the ones that helped me discover my fighting streak and lit the fire in my belly that means I want to keep pushing and never give up. I want to keep fighting their good fight, and it’s because they fought so hard in the first place that makes me want to continue.

You are not alone

You are not alone. You do not have to go through this alone. There will be people out there who want to try and understand. Your family, friends, medical professionals. They will want to join you and help you and your child. It can be easy to feel like you’re alone, but these people are out there somewhere. You just have to work out who they are and let them in. Please let them in.

It’s okay to take time for yourself

Please don’t ever feel guilty about wanting a little me time now and then to rest and recharge. The first time I remember my mum going away for a weekend with some of her friends, my dad and I had a wonderful time. He made sure that I had so much fun and tried to keep my mind off missing my mum as much as he could. He took my for my first ever cinema trip, it was to see Disney’s Pocahontas, and we put up the Christmas decorations as a surprise for my mum when she got home.

It’s okay to be sad

When I was younger I used to think that I couldn’t be sad about the things that I couldn’t do because that was just something I had to accept about my CP. I used to think I wasn’t allowed to be sad that I couldn’t go ice skating with my friends or climb trees, but as I got a bit older I realised it was okay to be sad sometimes, it was okay to cry sometimes, as long as I turned that into motivation to keep going and try to learn to do more things.

I’ve said over and over again that I consider myself to be lucky, and I know that I am. I don’t hate my disability; in fact I think it’s had a positive impact on my life in a lot of ways. I still get frustrated sometimes when something doesn’t come easily, and then I often feel like I’ve let myself down for feeling that way. But, I’m only human so I know that this is okay. I just use these emotions as drive to keep going when I feel like it’s all getting a bit much.

Never, ever give up

Enough said.

It might not feel like it right now, but together you can achieve great things

My parents and I am my graduation
My parents and I am my graduation