Rediscovering my motivation

It feels like things are changing here in NicLand, and that is most definitely a good thing.

It’s now been three years since I finished my multimedia journalism degree and a lot has happened to me since then. When I graduated I felt mentally and physically stronger than I had ever done. I could walk further and do more for myself than I had been able to in the past, and my anxiety and low moods weren’t impacting on me anywhere near as much as they had done when I was studying for my A-levels and in my first year at uni. Yes, I was scared about what the future might hold, but more than anything, I was excited.

Fast forward two years and the story became very different. Even though I’d done work experience, an internship and a bit of freelance work, I still hadn’t found a fulltime job. I wasn’t getting out much during the week because everyone around me had jobs, and that meant that I spent a lot of time alone with my thoughts. I spent far more time focusing on my worries, my anxieties and everything and my OCD-like thoughts about germs. I started showering up to three times a day and changing my clothes, worrying that they would have germs on them that would infect the house. I spent a lot of time crying and not a lot of time sleeping. To put it bluntly, I was a mess.

Continue reading “Rediscovering my motivation”

Things I am good at

There are times when I feel that I spend most of my posts on this blog wittering about things that I can’t do very well or things that I find difficult. Not today. Today the sun is out (at last) so I’m feeling happy and I have decided that I will talk about some of the things that I’m good at.

I tend to have a hard time accepting that there are things I can do, and do occasionally do well. I’m usually always first in line to put myself down about the smallest things and I know that is an attitude that won’t get me very far in life and that needs to change. So I’m going to start right here, right now by listing some things that I feel are my strengths.

Ready? Let’s go:

  • Talking: Everyone who knows me will tell you straight away that I can talk the hind legs off a donkey. I love meeting people and hearing their stories. It’s one of the many reasons that I decided to study journalism.
  • Listening
  • Writing
  • Reading
  • Making tea  I seem to spend most of my time drinking tea these days so I would hope I make a good cuppa. Practice makes perfect, right?
  • Motivating people
  • Time keeping
  • Trying new things
  • Pointing out things I need to improve on, and accepting that everyone has something they want to be better at

As you can see, I haven’t put down any major physical activities on the list, but I’m sure there must be some, I just can’t think of what they are right now. Due to my Cerebral Palsy I find a lot of things that require lots of movement (like DYI, for example) hard, but no one can do everything. No human anyway. I might not be a professional sports woman but does it really matter when I have confidence in my abilities to do the things on the above list?

What are you good at doing?