I don’t know what to do with myself

This is probably going to sound weird but just lately my body has been really getting on my nerves.

November has been a hectic month in terms of going NANOWRIMO again, trying to plan for Christmas, and trying to get lots of videos ready for my YouTube channel. Oh, and it seems to have been a really, really bad cerebral palsy month.

So far I’ve gone from having neck pain, to back pain, reverted back to having more neck pain, followed by more back pain, then a strange and unpleasant new pain in my hips, and now my legs are grumpy and my shoulder blades aren’t exactly my best friend right now either.

As soon as I get one top of one ache, another one takes its place. It’s like I’m playing a game of whack-a-mole that you get inn amusement arcades, only the machine has gone into overdrive and I’m not sure how to stop it.

I’m tired. I haven’t been sleeping well, even though I’ve been taking my Baclofen to try and keep the aches at bay long enough to get a good night’s sleep.

I’m emotionally drained too. Sometimes I think bad CP days take up more mental energy than physical. It’s like you’re constantly trying to keep moving so that you stay one step ahead of your own body.

It’s hard.

I feel like all my posts here lately have been really negative and I hate that.

Sorry guys. I’m just drained.

I don’t know what to do with myself.


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