Monday Blues

When I sat down to start writing today’s post, I thought that I was going write something about carrying things, especially heavy things, but as soon as I pressed the ‘New Post’ button, it didn’t feel right.

Although this blog is primarily one about me living with my disability cerebral palsy, I have also recently opened up about my mental health, and my journey through life with OCD, anxiety and low mood/depression.

I never know just how much of that to share here, not because I am ashamed of it, but because I don’t know if the people who read these posts would find it helpful or interesting.

That said, I’m going to talk about it today because today is a particularly ‘bad’ or hard day and I don’t want to hide from it. On days like today I kind of feel like the world all looks a bit foggy around he edges, the things that make me happy don’t seem to be today. Even while I talk to people I feel alone and my own moody makes me feel claustrophobic within my own mind.

I feel a bit like I’m doing everything in slow motion. I think I would feel better if I could just sit down and have a five minute cry, but it’s not that simple and I know life doesn’t work that way.

I’ll try and lose myself in writing, or reading or a TV show on Netflix.

Today is one off day. I’ll get through it. I know that people go through this and worse everyday. I’ll get past it.

I love you all,

Nic xx

2 thoughts on “Monday Blues

  1. I’m so sorry you had a rough day, but I applaud you for being so open about it. I went through a period of anxiety and depression a couple of years ago. It can be so isolating (among other things). Reaching out however you can is a great form of medicine!


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